Hello folks! I am so happy to be back and blogging again! I had some technical issues that I didn’t know how to resolve, so I had to reach out to my website expert, and he got me back up and running again.
While I was away, I had a trip down memory lane. I went through some of my old photos (like the one pictured above), and I realized how much I miss my old way of blogging. Before, I felt more creative, and it felt like I could express myself more naturally. Don’t get me wrong, I love the idea of exploring storytelling, and I know how important storytelling is to life itself; it’s just that I feel like I have to force the topic of storytelling, and there is only so much I can talk about. I’m not a natural storyteller, nor do I know enough about the subject to keep it going over a long period of time.
As the picture above suggests, I am torn between two worlds when it comes to blogging. Do I return to the way I blogged before, when I wrote about my life, or do I continue to try out the exploration of storytelling? For my own mental well-being and my own satisfaction, I think I’m going to return to the old way of doing things. I had more fun, and I was more creative back then, and I want to get back to that.
I guess it’s a good thing to consider the possibility of all outcomes, but unfortunately, as a human, there is only so much I know about a path before I begin to walk down it. Fortunately, in regards to blogging, I have tried both ways and, to a degree, I know what works better for me and what I’m hoping to achieve.
Besides blogging, I find myself torn between two or more worlds more often than I care to admit. I’m middle-aged, and I would think by now that I would have things figured out, but I don’t. I’m not ashamed to admit that. Whether it is my dating life, what to wear, or what to do with my time, the answers elude me most days. I guess that’s another part of being human and living the human experience. According to Google AI, “the average adult makes roughly 35,000 decisions every day”. That’s mind-blowing to think about…especially if someone builds their life around routine. Throw a little indecision into the mix, and things get even more complicated.
I can’t help but think of my favorite poem by Robert Frost, “The Road Not Taken”. For the longest time, I thought the poem meant making the hard decision, but I have come to realize it’s simpler than that. It’s just a poem about making choices. I’m sure some decisions are harder than others, but “The Road Not Taken” is just about having a choice to make and making it. That leads me back to blogging. I had a choice to make, and I don’t know where it’s going to lead, but I’m choosing the path that makes me feel more like myself, and I’m excited!